Finding Peace

During a week of turmoil, stress of failure, and lack of the essentials such as food or sleep, I was able to find a little slice of peace today. Its amazing the emotions that do come out when I take the time to sincerely ponder in my own thoughts. I have been pondering a lot the last few days. One of the main themes I have been asking myself is where is my foundation of faith? I went through and thought about the faith I had in daily study of the word of God, and daily prayer. I also have faith in keeping the Sabbath day holy, tithing, fasting, and many other things. One of my friends brought up a very significant point that made me stop and rethink where I was on life. He told me that I was not as good as I thought I was. At first I felt a little offended. My thoughts were that I was trying my best to show everyone how good I really was. As this thought kept going through my mind I realized the huge flaw that was in my thought process.

Life is not about showing others how good you are or how bad you are. It is not about being impressive to your friends or colleagues. It is not about hiding your imperfections from the world so you feel good about yourself. It is not about doing things on your own. I will tell you some of my thoughts about what life really is about. Life is about being who you are where you are in the moment and not trying to hide it from the world. Life is about making mistake,s sometimes big one,s and repenting and learning and growing. Life is about helping others to know the Savior. Life is about coming to know on a very personal basis, Jesus Christ, the Redeemer of the world. The entire purpose of life is to gain this relationship, and testimony that is so strong that everything will either fall into place or fall out of your life.

These questions really helped me refocus my attention on the Savior. It helped remind me that no matter how many commandments or rules I keep, no matter how many times I go to church and refrain from making a mistake, non of that really matters unless all my efforts are pointing to Jesus Christ. I feel like I have been doing things backwards a little. The Savior comes first, that relationship is what helps us with everything else in our lives. I want to know my Redeemer on a more personal level so that I can always trust Him. That is what life is about.

One Paragraph Girl

So I like the idea of writing down thoughts and feelings on a blog because even though no one reads it, I still feel like maybe someone out there is caring what those thoughts of mine are. I have decided though that I am a one paragraph type of girl. I don't share what is inside my heart very often. I rarely share my fears with people, even close friends. I sometimes share my accomplishments but only to those I am closest with. My dad and mom probably know me better than any human living on this earth. I turn to them and talk to them about what is going on in my life. I don't feel there is anything wrong with being a one paragraph girl, just something I noticed about my writing styles in my life.

Temple peace=spiritual peace.

There have been many times in my life that I feel anxious. I will feel anxious or concerned, and generally those are things that are out of my control. I have found some ways that I have been able to find that peace. One of the ways is to go to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Attending church is an amazing way that I have found peace in my life. Another main way is by attending the temple. There is a certain peace that seems to engulf my troubled soul and wash away any worry or doubt in my life. This is because I am entering the House of the Lord, and it seems that the Spirit helps me to see His eternal view in small portions. This helps me to know that there is a specific plan for me. I am known.

Sunday Thoughts

I was having a discussion with some of my friends yesterday evening and there were some profound thoughts shared. One of them shared was that there is a quote that goes around saying it is better to be feared then loved. She then changed it to it is easier for a teacher or a coach to be feared then it is for them to gain the love of those around them. I thought that was an interesting thought.

Another topic of discussion that was shared was this. I posed the question of what is your core motivation for what you do in your life. It was an interesting topic of discussion that has made me think throughout today about what is my core motivation and if I was satisfied with where it was at. Just some interesting thoughts to ponder about.